here to update bout today.
so at 3:30A.M!mum and dad quarreled.
i was just about to get some rest wen they quarrel?
hello!
which part of 3:30A.M dun u guys understand?
people are like slping.
haix.
so i couldnt sleep la eh.
k fine whatever.
i left house and took a stroll?
so yadayada.
its like 2+ right now.
im not asleep.
cant sleep.
not in the mood for school at all.
no mood for anything at all.
its 2:40 on my watch.
xD
chatting wif helena syg..
she's awake marx.
xDxD
hahs
lately,i've been cooking a lot.
can be considered as a hobby.
i just finished cooking burger.
xD
monday=mee bandung
tuesday=nasi goreng sardine
wednesday=mee goreng
thurs=i forgot
friday=i forgot.
hahs
today didnt cook
cos i was out the whole day sorting out my thinkings.
xDxD
surprisingly.
i couldnt sort put anything.
hahs
i went out of home at 12
and went home at 7:45
i was hoping that things wpuld kinda be better.
but i was wrong.
now wat.
u guys are getting me involve?
hey
im not involve
im both ur daughter.
i dun wanna be involve.
dun ever drag me into this.
its bad enuf for me to know the horrible truth.
i went out hoping to calm myself down.
but both ur words.
they were stuck to my head.
yeah they were.
it hurts orite wen i think of it.
sometime i just wonder.
why do all bad things always hav to happen to me?
yeah.
reeks.
i feel so fucked up.
yeah i feel fucked up.
my freaking exams are coming in 19 days.
and wat the hell
this has to happen right wen im doing my revision
YOU GUYS told me to not let all dis thing affect me.
but hey.
i slept at 4 a.m and was woken up by YOU GUYS quarelling at 7.
eh come on la.
hav some heart can?
i was studying the whole night okay?
my head is spinning like hell right now.
asssssssss.
dis sickens me .
yeah..
im feeling really angry right now.
but im feeling dissapointed too.
yeah
very dissapointed in the both of u.
the people whom i turtes the most.
u guys just seem to vanished.
nw,
i got no one .
yeah
i mean yeah i do hav my besties but hey,
they too have their own life.
they are not the least related to me at all.
haix
I just can't believe you're gone
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise
Even without you by my side (ooh yeah)
When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it i'm reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart
Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (plans we made)
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know (no no)
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams
Take everything
Just take it away (oh oh), but they can never have yesterday
You always used to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or atleast how the story goes (but I never believed them 'til now)
I know i'll see you again i'm sure
No, it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night, one more day
One more smile on you face
But they can't take yesterday
Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (no no)
They can take the music that we'll never play
(they can take the music that we'll never play)
All the broken dreams (oh, my broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday (oh oh oh)
They can take the future that we'll never know (we'll never know)
They can take the places that we said we would go (huh oh oh)
All the broken dreams (all the broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
I thought our days would last forever (but it wasn't our destiny)
'Cause in my mind, we had so much time
But i was so wrong
Now i can, believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday
Chorus:
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made (ooh ooh)
They can take the music that we'll never play (no)
All the broken dreams
(all the broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
(yesterday)
They can take the future that we'll never know
(yeah ah)
They can take the places that we said we would go
(that we said we would go)
All the broken dreams
(all our broken dreams)
Take everything (take everything)
Just take it away,
but they can never have yesterday
(they can never have yesterday)
Ooooh...
(All the broken dreams take everything)
But they can never have yesterday
hello.
new blog created.
all the other posts are just left as memories yeah.
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woke up early in the morning..
chaos was is the house.
yeah im upset.
really upset.
mum and dad stop quarelling wil u?
im sick and tired of dis.
dis is like going on forever.
pls spare a tot for me.
my end year exams are getting nearer.
and u guys aint helping me.
instead u guys are causing me to have stress.
yeah im sick and tired of dis.
im upset to hav found out the truth.
yeah.
i just wanna run away.
i dun wanna ba in this house anymore.
the 2 of u aint getting along.
i cant take dis.
i cud still tke dis wen u guys were just quarelling.
but wat i heard today.
my heart.
it had just shattered into pieces.
yeah.it just did.
my heart.
it can never be put back together again.
yeah.
i cant believe all dis are happening rite now.
yeah.
it just hurt so much.
as im writing down this,
u dont know how much tears is being wasted.
how long will this continue?
forever and never ending?
this reeks.
yeah it does.
alot too.
somehow.
i just wished that i didnt heard wat u guys said early this morning.
yeah.
now that i've hear it.
i just dun wanna tok to you guys anymore.
yeah.
i hate you guys.
yeah i do.
why cant u guys just pretend nothing happen?
yeah i know its hard.
but its harder for me to cope with it.
im facing my streaming dis year.
and with all this happening right now.
what the hell am i suppose to do?
rite now
there's no peace in the house.
yeah.
the both of u keep blaming me.
like this thing is my fault?
u guys were the one quarelling.
and wen i just ask u guys to just shut the hell up.
u guys scream at me.
torture me.
wth?
i dun wanna continue all this any longer.
so yeah.
much as i love you guys.
i just dunno to whom im supposed to hang on to when this happens.
yeah.
i've lost my sense of direction.
yeah.
i dun find anything worthwhile to continue living for.
